“Whatever happens, whatever you decide”
Is it just me, or do other people also find these lines the most romantic thing Castle has ever said to Beckett?
I just swooned when he said them.
What gets me more about the finale is how I still can’t figure out what Kate decided. A big part of me thinks she chose the job over him hence her telling Ryan and Esposito that she had to tell someone else first. And this actually hurts my soul. Another part of me thinks she chose to stay hence her serene smile when arriving at the swings and her sudden heartbroken look when she thought Castle was going to break up with her. But both could also mean the opposite. I really don’t have a clue what she decided. And that’s what makes the finale so great. It is the first finale where I really don’t know what is going to happen. It can go either way. I know she won’t go to DC, but I have no clue whether she’ll say “yes”, “no” or “not yet”. And I’m fine with either of these options (they’ll be together anyway). What truly matters is that they talk. And that’s what I’m looking forward to. The finale really set up wonderful opportunities.
The other great part about the finale to me is how Castle holding back was finally addressed. It had gotten better sinde 5x19, but most of the season I thought Castle looked uninterested in the relationship. While I wasn’t particularly fond of Martha insinuating that the reason Castle was holding back was because he didn’t think the relationship was going to work, I love that it was finally brought up and that it made him think and act. I wish that he actually explained the reason he was holding back, but I understand that it didn’t fit the finale as they were going for the shock value. But I hope that we get to see it in season 6. I can understand why he was holding back. He’s been holding back ever since he met her. He spent 4 years waiting for her and not rushing things not to scare her. It’s like his default state with her. He trained himself to wait for her, to let her decide how fast or slow things went between them. And now that he’s finally got her, he’s just doing what he always did because he doesn’t wanna scare her off. And he’s happy. If that’s all she’s able to give him, he’s fine with it because he’ll take her in whatever form. He waited 4 years for this, and he’s so happy that it finally happened that he’s not ruining it by forcing something on her that she’s probably not ready for. So he’s not pushing anything, he’ll just take whatever she’s willing to give him.
So when he realized that Kate didn’t think of them as a serious enough couple to even consider talking to him about this interview and she still thought of life and “her life” and not “our life”, it finally hit him that his holding back was doing more bad than good and that it was actually hurting them. Martha’s speech was perfect because it made him see that he wasn’t showing Kate how “all in” he was and that made her insecure and scared. It made her consider other options without including him, because she wasn’t sure if that’s what she was supposed to do.
So he finally took action, he finally stopped holding back. He finally decided to stop waiting. So he asked her to marry him. Because that’s what he always wanted. He didn’t say “Always” for nothing. And it doesn’t matter if she decides to take the job in DC, because he’ll be with her no matter what.
The proposal wasn’t perfect. And that’s why I loved it. I loved how imperfect it was. I loved how surprising it was. I loved how serious he was. Because he wasn’t joking around. This was it for him. She was it. No matter what. I loved how it wasn’t cheesy and elaborate. It was complex, it was flawed, it was real.
And with this, I finally made piece with Richard Castle acting uninterested most of the season. I know where he stands now.
I need Kate to explain what was going through her head though. My heart actually hurt for Castle during their fight at her apartment. He was right to be upset. She lied to him about something big. And when confronted with it she just kept hurting even more by saying how it was about “her life” and it had nothing to do with them. It hurt me, so I can’t imagine how Castle felt. And then her telling her dad that the job was what she wanted, it was like she had made her decision even after knowing how hurt Castle was (rightfully so).
So I need her to voice her feelings. I really don’t know what she decided. I need them to talk. Really talk. They both need to communicate what was going through her minds. Castle: why he was holding back and Kate: why she shut him out.
Anyway, beautiful finale. It raised so many questions and emotions. Can’t wait for season 6 for all the answers.